My point, as my brain swirls with activity, is how the heck do we save $40,000, if that is in fact what we need. That will take us years. We could literally live here for three or four more years while we pay down the mortgage and bank every penny.
Glad I did not get my nails done this weekend.
The most frustrating thing is that with our current income we could certainly swing a high mortgage payment. We are paying one now.
On a happy note I did make dinner tonight. I am so proud of myself. I grilled pizzas and they were fabulous. I am taking a vow not to eat out at all this week. All cooking for this family. Save money, save money, save money.
The anticipation of working full-time is making me a stressed out lunatic. I spent the whole morning cooking and freezing meals in preparation for not being able to make dinner after a long day of work. Last year we ate a ridiculous amount of take-out. Not only did not not help my waist line, but it cost us way too much money. I really need to reign in our food budget. So I have already created a monthly budget that I plan to stick to or stay under. It will include menu planning and careful shopping because we finally are both working full-time and it is time to save some money and figure out what to do about the house.
Oh the house, the house, I do love the house. It is cute and tiny, and tiny, and tiny. It is four rooms, yes I said four rooms. It is under 800 square feet. Our goal at this point is figure out if selling or renovating is our best options. Renovating seems quite expensive, but selling isn't cheap either. So now that we are both working full-time and have two decent salaries coming in, we need to buckle down and save some money because no matter what we decide to do one thing is certain. We will need money.
Now that I will be going back to work because I did get the job I need to set some goals. This week's goals include daily cardio, more water some water, ice coffee isn't the only beverage, and a better diet. Good luck to me.
The lasagna is a bad story. I love cooking and reading cookbooks. It is really one of my favorite things to be in my kitchen (no matter how small). Sometimes I feel like I could have been Liv Walton cooking and preparing food all day. I attempted to create this new lasagna recipe that I got from a reputable crock pot book. My crock pot is new, which may be the problem. Bottom line is at the end of the cooking time the sausage was still raw. I even added an additional hour plus on high. Still gross. So disappointed. All that work to make dinner that we could have eaten twice and we still ended up ordering a pizza.
After I trashed the lasagna I decided I needed to get some exercise. (Yes, I did throw it out. Raw sausage is unsettling. After fighting with it to cook I knew I could not eat that lasagna without worrying about getting sick.)I have been taking the time to do various workouts we have, and we have a lot! Well last night my bad mood and I decided to try Richard Simmons Sweating to the Oldies. Yes I own this, and yes it is a tape, and yes it is from 1988. What can I say, I am not twenty five. It is virtually impossible to stay in a bad mood if you are working out with Richard Simmons. You can't. If you are dancing and doing his routine as he sings, never mind that the video is totally 80's. It actually is a great workout and got me over the lasagna disaster. Not over it enough for hubby to make jokes. The recipe I attempted is on the front cover of the cookbook. He started to crack a joke. I told him I was not ready for that. He asked when I would be ready. That's marriage for you. At least he bought the pizza.
I have a few thoughts that I hope to share without being all over the place. Actually I don't think it is possible to not be all over the place, but I will try. Right now everyone is sleeping. It is 6:43 a.m. The kids have been so busy this summer. We had company yesterday and they were playing with their cousin for hours. They both went to bed late so hopefully I will have some more quiet time to focus and get ready for my day.
This morning started with my allergies. Wretched allergies would be the best way to describe them. Dust, pollen, wine, general breathing. Each day begins with a runny nose, and we ran out of Allegra. Also, I need to go an allergist while there is still time this summer. Have I actually called? Of course not.
My anxiety is about a five and a half or six out of ten. I am convinced it changes throughout the month and is very connected to my hormones. It is usually at its worst during PMS. I typically feel my best at the beginning of each cycle. What do I agonize over? Everything. My mind is a constant tornado of thoughts, worry, guilt, questions. At 41 I have begun to realize that a lot of it is my personality. Sometimes I let those little thoughts, worries, and obsessions, float around my head. I just live and get through. I have learned and continue to work on just letting them be there without getting too stuck on them. My allergies and I decided to sneak out of bed and do a little yoga routine. Nothing strenuous, just a very short morning yoga video (yes video)that stretches the body and awakens the mind. It was a good start to the day, and shockingly enough no one woke up to help me. I envisioned a four year old voice saying "Hi Mama" but he is still dreaming. Whew! So my quick yoga routine was helpful to wake me up. Here I am typing and I haven't even had coffee. I bought this set about ten years ago. I used to do it before work sometimes. What I really need to do today is blow through some cardio. My diet and exercise plan has not gone that well. I could whine, but life's too short. At this point I care more about health than being thin. I know there can be a connection, but overall I would prefer to be someone who worked out regularly and ate well and wore a size 12 as opposed to someone who was skinny but not healthy. For the record I don't wear a size 12, but I would be strutting my stuff if I did. The cardio workout is what helps blast that anxiety out. I promise I will do stuff, but then when I feel good it is so easy to put it off. I promise today that I will get in a cardio based workout. Now I need to start a new post.
