Monday, July 29, 2013

Interviews, trash lasagna and Richard Simmons

Like the title? It makes you wonder what I am thinking. One is that the interview that could make or break my career is in just a few hours. That is stressful. With the idea that I could be working I have been doing a frantic childcare search and find ways to make the fall fluid and calm for all of us.

The lasagna is a bad story. I love cooking and reading cookbooks. It is really one of my favorite things to be in my kitchen (no matter how small). Sometimes I feel like I could have been Liv Walton cooking and preparing food all day. I attempted to create this new lasagna recipe that I got from a reputable crock pot book. My crock pot is new, which may be the problem. Bottom line is at the end of the cooking time the sausage was still raw. I even added an additional hour plus on high. Still gross. So disappointed. All that work to make dinner that we could have eaten twice and we still ended up ordering a pizza.

After I trashed the lasagna I decided I needed to get some exercise. (Yes, I did throw it out. Raw sausage is unsettling. After fighting with it to cook I knew I could not eat that lasagna without worrying about getting sick.)I have been taking the time to do various workouts we have, and we have a lot! Well last night my bad mood and I decided to try Richard Simmons Sweating to the Oldies. Yes I own this, and yes it is a tape, and yes it is from 1988. What can I say, I am not twenty five. It is virtually impossible to stay in a bad mood if you are working out with Richard Simmons. You can't. If you are dancing and doing his routine as he sings, never mind that the video is totally 80's. It actually is a great workout and got me over the lasagna disaster. Not over it enough for hubby to make jokes. The recipe I attempted is on the front cover of the cookbook. He started to crack a joke. I told him I was not ready for that. He asked when I would be ready. That's marriage for you. At least he bought the pizza.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

So many thoughts.......

When I go to write a post I have so many thoughts to share that I just can't get them straight. If I were to actually post more often I could focus my posts more. My personality is more like feast or famine so I have five different post ideas in my head right now, but I will probably go a month before writing again.

I have a few thoughts that I hope to share without being all over the place. Actually I don't think it is possible to not be all over the place, but I will try. Right now everyone is sleeping. It is 6:43 a.m. The kids have been so busy this summer. We had company yesterday and they were playing with their cousin for hours. They both went to bed late so hopefully I will have some more quiet time to focus and get ready for my day.

This morning started with my allergies. Wretched allergies would be the best way to describe them. Dust, pollen, wine, general breathing. Each day begins with a runny nose, and we ran out of Allegra. Also, I need to go an allergist while there is still time this summer. Have I actually called? Of course not.

My anxiety is about a five and a half or six out of ten. I am convinced it changes throughout the month and is very connected to my hormones. It is usually at its worst during PMS. I typically feel my best at the beginning of each cycle. What do I agonize over? Everything. My mind is a constant tornado of thoughts, worry, guilt, questions. At 41 I have begun to realize that a lot of it is my personality. Sometimes I let those little thoughts, worries, and obsessions, float around my head. I just live and get through. I have learned and continue to work on just letting them be there without getting too stuck on them. My allergies and I decided to sneak out of bed and do a little yoga routine. Nothing strenuous, just a very short morning yoga video (yes video)that stretches the body and awakens the mind. It was a good start to the day, and shockingly enough no one woke up to help me. I envisioned a four year old voice saying "Hi Mama" but he is still dreaming. Whew! So my quick yoga routine was helpful to wake me up. Here I am typing and I haven't even had coffee. I bought this set about ten years ago. I used to do it before work sometimes. What I really need to do today is blow through some cardio. My diet and exercise plan has not gone that well. I could whine, but life's too short. At this point I care more about health than being thin. I know there can be a connection, but overall I would prefer to be someone who worked out regularly and ate well and wore a size 12 as opposed to someone who was skinny but not healthy. For the record I don't wear a size 12, but I would be strutting my stuff if I did. The cardio workout is what helps blast that anxiety out. I promise I will do stuff, but then when I feel good it is so easy to put it off. I promise today that I will get in a cardio based workout. Now I need to start a new post.

Monday, July 8, 2013

The most random blog......

I was just reading through some old blog posts, and I have what I would call the most random blog ever. Work, cooking, not cooking, it is a potpourri of thoughts. We just took a fun mini vacation. I am trying to complete a summer schedule. I was able to actually purge some things from the house today and make the same dinner for everyone. No, not "everyone" ate it, but I will keep trying.